“To understand others, watch what they reward.

To understand yourself, watch what you envy.”

I read that and sat quietly with it for sometime.

The latter part just made me pause. “To understand yourself, watch what you envy”. Envy is slippery surface.

To notice envy. Not just the fleeting kind—someone’s holiday photos or a shiny new car—but the deeper twinges. The ones that linger.

Perhaps it isn’t just about wanting what they have. Perhaps it’s about something unspoken. Freedom?

Recognition?

A sense of ease?

Sitting with it, even briefly, might help. Naming it, writing it down, noticing when it shows up. Over time, a pattern might emerge. A quiet revelation of what truly matters to you.

And once you see it, you have a choice.

To chase it.

To redefine it.

Or to let it go.

Note To Self.